Lazy Writer

Recently, I am reading a book titled “Walking With God” by John Eldredge. One lesson that is taught on the book is that God is speaking using various channels including speaking to our hearts. This is a part of intimacy that God wants each of His child to practice and build in our daily lives. John gave several simple practices and examples from his own experiences. He also wrote that the main filter to examine if the voices we hear in our heart is from God or not is the Bible. The first to build the habits to listen to God speaking to our hearts is to ask His will about simple things in our lives. Or in other words, we should start small and simple. And I have been practicing this, probably for one or two weeks. John encouraged us to ask God what part of Bible He wants us to read. The reason is of course because God can use certain passages on Bible to speak to us specifically. So, I tried to practice this and asked God, “Lord, what do you want me to read from Bible today?” I fain...

“The poor and needy search for water, but there is none; their tongues are parched with thirst. But I the Lord will answer them; I, the God of Israel, will not forsake them.  I will make rivers flow on barren heights, and springs within the valleys. I will turn the desert into pools of water, and the parched ground into springs. Isaiah 41:17-18 Two months ago, I lost my side job. The owner told me that she couldn't pay me and other writers because the cost was too high. She didn't have sponsors to fund her site. The maintenance cost was high and I guess the earning from the ads couldn't cover it. My heart sank because I needed the money.  I had planned how I would manage my finance with the money. But then,  things went south. To be brutally honest,  my main job couldn't cover some of my needs.  The salary only enough to cover the basic.  I could survive with the basic but I wanted to help my parents and youngest sister.  I feel it is my respon...

What I learned in 2016 This year will end in one day (at least in the place where I live) and we will enter 2017. There were a lot of things I learned in 2016. This year has been a roller coaster of emotions for me. It has been a brutal year for me, no kidding. I learned that God wanted me to be honest with my emotions, in front of Him. I was trapped in my way of thinking, and  assumptions  that some how I could manipulate Him if I just said the right words.  If I pleased Him by saying the things He wanted to hear, then I would get what I wanted.  It's a silly way of thinking.  Another wrong way of thinking was that if I was being honest to God about what I felt,  that God would be surprised and admonished me like my parents are used to do. You know, like those others religious people who have good intentions, I imagined God would say that it's not OK to feel that way or this way. It's not OK to think like this or like that. Sometimes I was struggling ...